Last updated: 28/05/08

Name:Joost
Nationality:Netherlands

Interests:         
Hanging out with friends
Leisure walks at any time of the day
Offering support
Fitness
Cryptology
Psychology
Symbology
Philosophy
Numberology
Observing things
Analysing things
Solving things
Discussing
Painting
Drawing
Making things
Making music
Even more other things

Hey there!
What more can I say?
I like thinking... Yeah thinking alot.
Never put myself in the first place, just because I feel like supporting the special ones in this weird life we live in, who to trust in these times?



How to describe a Joost through handwriting:
Joost is moderately outgoing. His emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, he can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. He has the ability to put himself into the other person's shoes.
Joost will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes he will be happy, the next day he might be sad. He has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because he is in between. Psychology calls Joost an ambivert. He understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, he will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." He doesn't sway too far one way or the other.
When convincing him to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to him. He puts himself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet he will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Joost is an expressive person. He outwardly shows his emotions. He may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.
Joost is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. He weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when he finally has to. He basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Joost doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
Joost will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!
In reference to Joost's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Joost slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.
He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Joost can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Joost is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Joost basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.
Something is incomplete in Joost's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption.

But these are superficial tests, so you still don't have a good image of me, I'll sum up some facts about me:

Fact#1: Psychology has determined I have autism, they can't seem to find what kind though
In these years I have had almost every single indication, it started with ADHD, then it was PDD-NOS, then it was Asperger... Currently they gave me Autistic spectrum impairment... Meaning I just have something that has something to do with autism... I guess?
Fact#1.2: Do not believe the Wikipedia, it is evil. So am I if you only rely on that.

Fact#2: I think too much, but I rather like to see that as a gift
How life would suck if there was nothing to think about!

Fact#3: My handwriting was right when they told me I gladly express my emotions... gladly... doesn't mean I'll do it, why should I? Because people seem to be more focussed on the outside so I have to show them how I feel and they probably only can see how I feel if I'd show them... I'll rather show those who I like, but psychologists like to call it emotionally unstable... I'm not denying anything though >_>

Fact#4: I voluntary care more about other people then choosing for myself, helping them without gaining anything myself; only people who I can rely on and trust though, and I have made 'quite' a few mistakes by trusting certain people. Psychology likes to call this insecurity but every time they say so I'll gladly show them the inconvenient truth of the opposite.

Fact#5: I do not know if will always stay that way for people change due time, but the least I can do is try

Fact#6: I like any kind of music as long as there's rhytm, but I rarely listen any.

Fact#7: Don't take life too seriously, I don't think you'll be happy, if you are... Tell me your secret

Fact#8: I like 'puzzles' that people create in ANY way... It's like an obsession and a way for me to show that I take time thinking about others.
It's my weakness as well I can't say no to them.

Fact#9: I like things that are unpredictable, for I find predictable things boring.

Fact#10: When people do not have their eyes covered I can rarely be defeated in a game of poker :)

Fact#11: I dispite negative gossips, I consider you an idiot if you are a gossiper and would like to have your head hanging at my wall for decoration.
You may however always joke but do not provoke.
On a side note: If someone finds me gossiping you may kill me and take all my precious belongings. (There are many) I'll gladly give you my adress. (I have rich family) I'll gladly give their adresses too :)

Fact#12: People can ask me anything, I do find nothing strange, and I will answer ALL your questions but I cannot garuanteed a helpful outcome for 100%.
But the least I can do is listen and think.
On a side note: While keeping fact 11 in mind
do not ask me to gossip, I will find you and your precious teddybear you have always cherished.

Fact#13: I dispite lies even more, but I understand the need of them for many people. Me? I have lied for over 14 years out of insecurity, then finding out there was only more insecurity after that. I've changed.

Fact#14: Perhaps it may seem like this, but I do not hate people, I am merely cautious. However I like to say that I hate people, I do overall not really like those I have met so far. But that is my own fault for interfering in a so called different world in which trust doesn't seem to be logical nor realistic.

Fact#15: I have only one fear; Agoraphobia.

Fact#16: Spirituality... I do not know what to think of it, I'm open about it.
But I rather focus myself on other things.

Fact#17: I believe in change.

Fact#18: I have a weak for certain things.

Fact#19: Friends call me Metrosexual, I prefer A-sexual, I have never understood the need for that kind of love, I rejected every offer so far.
I do not have an explanation for this.

Fact#20: My laughter seems to scare people.

Fact#21: I am curious about many things.

Fact#22: I have never been in a fight. For I hate fysical aggression.

Fact#23: There isn't a single person I can think of that has/had hateful feelings towards me, I like to keep it that way.

Fact#24: There are some more facts which I do not talk about openly, which until this day have always stayed in my mind. So I openly admit there are things I do not talk about with as reason they are things
that are absurd, unreal and quite deeprooted.
Perhaps I will someday be released of these demons.
One could always ask though, but do not expect me to tell the entire truth about these issues.
Rather then asking, one could tell me why I should not keep it for myself, perhaps you can somehow convince me.

Fact#25: Never, compare people with other people
You might get a wrong image of people this way before you even know them. I do not like these kind of people. I like to have their heads hanging on my wall for decoration as well. Everyone is unique.

Fact#26: I do not like to be judgemental by looks but I cannot deny that some people like to intimidate others with their look and body attitude. I do understand the need of this for many people but I rather tell them to just act without trying to put up an illusion. For defination I once saw a shirt with the text 'Jesus is a cunt' I asked why he was wearing that, he said he liked to shock people but my brains translate his shirt's text into: 'I need attention so I just start hating people so they will love me'.
Another example, Lonsdale. I guess there are 2 types of Lonsdale people; Those who know the original meaning which is not discriminating and those who rather like to see the logo as discriminating, they gladly show other people they are discriminating... Why? I believe they compare people with other people.
So I talked to those fellows too. At first I was quite scared they were going to hit me (preconception)
But when I showed them I was not afraid of them by taking on a secure posture they seemed to be quite nice fellows. One told me that he was in a classroom being the only white guy, the rest was black. Then he told me he was punished by all of them and then he started to hate black people. So that means he compares every single black guy with another >_> at least... That's what he likes to tell you
Even though, I do not like these kind of people.
Do not exilirate your trauma's and problems by starting to hate, it doesn't solve a single thing.
Just stay yourself for the love of it.
So yes, in a way you can be jugemental by looks but you can never be certain for 100% after all people mostly do like to tell you something with their clothing.

Fact#27: One would think I am theoretical by looking at my interests, in a way... Yes. Although I like to vary quite alot between theoretical and practical.
I seek practicality in theory and theory in practicality. I guess that's the most easy way of explaining.

Fact#28: When I watch back at these things I wrote, it definately looks like I take life too seriously . So let me start by stating that they are indeed facts, but I do not think about those things in daily life non-stop, I'm not like that. I'm just some random guy ^^

Fact#29: If you talk to me, do not try to remember these things, they were just for information.
Just talk to me like you would talk to anybody, e.g. In a way you feel comfortable with.
You'll find out I can be quite what you weren't expecting

:)

I hope that will anwer all of your deepmost questions.
Let me know if I have forgotten something.